Just Smiling...

A few minutes ago, I was sitting at the computer here in campaign central and I was singing along to Indie Aire's cover of The Heart of the Matter, and I looked up to catch my boss giving me a slightly wicked look. I absolutely started to grin like a fool for no reason. It was one of those purely happy moments that come on unexpectedly and because they are unexpected they are such a sweet experience.

In the grand scheme of things there aren't too many reasons why I shouldn't be smiling right now. There is always the broke thing...but then again there is ALWAYS the broke thing. I do have to admit that today I was downtown doing visibility for the campaign, and I started to become really envious...in a way that I usually reserve for men with great bodies...of the awesome shoes and other accoutrements that I saw folks wearing that I knew I just couldn't afford. It is a very wierd space to be in where I am actually pretty happy with my work but at the same time dismally unhappy with my salary and trying to reconcile in my head those two realities.

I did just come across a job announcement at Patrick's Cabaret for the position of Administrative Director. It's a position that I am qualified to hold. It's part time with full benefits...and it would allow me plenty of time to write. The salary is dismal...but then it again it really isn't for the number of hours to be worked. I think I am going to go for it. I want to spend as much time as possible writing. And that will definately give me that opportunity. It will mean a very serious readjustment in the way that I live and work and play. But that has been way and long overdue. If I am going to make it as an artist, something is going to have to give. And the truth is that I want to be writing as much as humanly possible right now.

Allright. I cant' spend too much time writing. And for those of you that read my last post...yes...indeed...the plan changed again...and it has changed completely at least six times since the last time that I wrote. If I learn nothing else from this job it will be how to roll with an ever changing landscape. I don't do it very well...but I'm getting better. Thanks to the patience of my co-workers and the pure fact that I really don't have much choice in the matter.

Today is a good day. It is.