I've Got Some Work To Do...

When I say I've got some work to do...it's a double entendre. Wait for it.

On the more literal side, I signed a new client today...which brings my total to four. I've got enough work now that I can probably only handle one more client, which is fantastic. I came to the realization today that even though I only have 21 hours of work a week from the various contracts...I have to factor in meeting time with those clients, stewardship, and actually dealing with the business side of my business. I made the decision to go into business for myself so that I would have time to focus on my writing. And, if I take on too many more clients, I will be defeating that whole purpose. Not that I am really complaining...with the four clients I have...I will be making more money per month than I have ever made...although...I have to set aside money for taxes...stupid taxes. Next month I can pay off the money I had to borrow during my financial crisis in December, and I can pay off my first student loan. Yeah. I paid rent this month, and I have food in the refrigerator. Things are really going well...and that's where I have always gotten into trouble.

I was cooking dinner tonight...a delicious stir fry...when I was hit by a crazy mad desire to use. My old pattern was when I was feeling good...I wanted to feel REALLY good. And then I ended up feeling really bad, got depressed, beat myself up a lot, and then started the entire cycle over again. Tonight, I did exactly what I was taught to do...I reached out...called some folks...and its now all good in the hood. Amazing that you arrive at a different outcome when you engage in different behavior...who'd a thunk it?

I've still got a lot of work to do. But today was a good first step. Again.

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[yk]

so proud baby. so proud.